Obsession

Ok, I know you probably think this is like some fangirling thing but it's not exactly that either. As in, I'm not talking about my obsessions but about how I obsess... Ok, it sounds wrong that way too. Hmm... ok obsession is too strong a word but I'm sure you get what I mean :)

Well, this is dedicated to all I have fangirled over... sokkaavatarbentenhansolojacksparrowouyangkeneilpatrickharrisbarneystinsontaekwondosunabouzumizunokanta and probably more I guess. Haha :) So yeah. Man I start wiki-ing and youtubing and just checking the web for stuff related to them... forums, blogs, websites, videos, anything. You name it, I'll can try my best to find it. Haha sounds extreme eh? Haha I wasn't like that. I think that with the Internet, it just made it easier to do all this. I know it's bad if you go overboard but I don't think it's that bad for me. Heh. I mean I do such stuff (yes my sis complains that I search weird stuff on the Internet) but it's interesting too. Like I find a lot fun trivia about actors/actresses and hmm.... history too I suppose? Like there are some shows that are actually based on an actual person, or are actually recreations of past shows that sort of thing. :) What's amazing is when you find out that someone is actually so versatile (Tara Strong, awesome voice actor), or you find that people are related (Emily Osment from Hannah Montana and Haley Joel Osment, the little boy from The Sixth Sense and A.I.)

Haha so i have to be careful when I'm trying to do my secret little "research" on the net. If I get caught, it's like "haha I know you're fangirling again. Omg why that person?" Hurh... it's the obvious sign. Heh though it doesn't apply to all cases. I mean, it can be genuine research or well, I'm just curious you know :) Haha so you see, ultimately, only I will know the truth. Muahahaha. xP

Hmm... since it's related, I won't mind touching on the subject of BGRs. Yeah there was this school-related PDA case on the MRT but I won't touch on it. Haha sorry. Anyway, I think I'm too innocent, contrary to what some may actually think. But really I am. I mean, I believe in fate, destiny and true love and happiness. I know there are some classmates who are skeptical and all. Hmmm... I need to change my perspective? I dunno. I actually think there's nothing wrong thinking this way you know. I mean none of us have ever been in such relationships before so yeah... my question is, 'How do you know?" And well, I do believe in true love and happiness; I believe that when you find the right one, no matter his/her flaws and imperfections, he/she will be perfect to you, in every single way. His/her perfections will be what makes that person perfect and special for you. :) Sounds mushy? Yeah it is... shows how innocent I am in this sense. ^.^

Haha yeah i had this casual talk with my mum today. Well, it was casual, nothing was implied, and well, it was out of the blue. Hehe yeah it's related to what I'm talking about now. LOL Well, i was telling my mum about this shocking thing I found out from my friend about how in her class, more than half the people were in BGRs! Man... and to think when I was like in Sec 1, I didn't know what BGRs stand for. Yeah I was telling my mum this and she was like, "Don't tell me you have?" LOL haha I know some might be offended or see this as like intrusion into their privacy or something (well being teens, such reactions are not surprising) but I'm fine with it actually. haha plus I know my mum was kinda joking about it.

Of course, I told her the truth..... haha yeah I laughed it off 'cos there's no such thing going on in my life. Haha :) and I don't plan to have one until after JC. Haha well, it's a personal promise but now my mum knows.... and you know.... anyway, she said, "Of course it's fine in JC. Just make sure the guy is good and decent." haha LOL some friends would wish their parents would say something like that man. Well, I'm neutral about it 'cos my personal promise stands. Haha I actually don't remember it but JL and NM keep saying, no.... they keep emphasizing what I supposedly said to them when I was in Sec 2. haha I seriously dun remember. heh. anyway, I think that if I like someone, it's better to say it all out, and not to keep guessing. Haha of course, I've never been in such a situation so well, I dunno how I'll actually respond. heh.

Ol, enough about this.... it's getting too personal. heh. Oh man I think there's something wrong with me? I'm liking the wrong person (not in the BGR sense)!!!! Haha I know know... I should probably slap myself or something.... there's seriously something wrong here. I know he's bad and he's done a lot of bad things but I can't help but feel that he has a kind heart too.... Ahhhhhh why why? 郭聪敏?! LOL my first impression of him was that he was a scary person but then it changed when he became poor. He's now funny in his own arrogant way. And yeah. Heh. Haha ok not fangirling but he's like my fave character in the show? So weird right? Anyway, 倪齐民 rocks. haha. Man I found out from my "research" that the scritpwriter wanted 郭聪敏 to die but then viewers voted that he live so he got cancer instead but then recovered (I hope?) and became good-good :) wow nice right? Wouldn't want him to die either. haha

我叫郭聪敏，人人都叫我英俊敏!!
我叫曾宪敏，人人都叫我英俊敏!!